The future (which can be intimidating). 

We are young, but not too young. As the days roll by, my heart becomes more full, and more serious about you. Serious in a way that makes me want to promise you the world and give you everything I could possibly offer you. The ambiguity of the future doesn’t scare me like it did three months ago, two months ago, one month ago. You don’t scare me like you used to, it has been replaced with the comfort and love from your heart, which is more than I could ever ask for. 

Wherever we’re going to find ourselves in the future, I’m ready. Take me there now and I would know the only person I’d choose to be with is you. But I can’t be there yet because we haven’t made the decisions that will affect the future, other than the decision of each other, and I’m more than okay with that. The present moment has given awareness like no other moments have, and you have given me the gift of being able to live in the moment. 

The future I imagined in my past was dark and dreary. You’ve given me the option to do what I actually want to do with my life, like you’ll be proud of me if I end up with four degrees or if I quit going to school tomorrow (I won’t, but tomorrow’s Sunday anyways). My future a year ago was a dark hole that I didn’t face. My future today is a bright shiny fucking star, thanks to you. 

If you’re worried, don’t be. I’ll be here beside you and everything else will fall into place the way we fell into place. I look forward to what we’re going to feel for each other and how close we’re going to get, but I also really appreciate this moment. This moment of love and friendship and happiness, this moment with you. 

When we’re together. 

There is an instant pull as if the other side of my magnet has become noticeably present. Whether he is north or south, I know I am the other side he’s searching for. 

There is nothing other than happiness, joy and true delight when he is near. The conversations could go on for days, the laughs for years, and like the love could go on forever. How do you know your forever is standing right in front of you? Well, you don’t know until you take the leap of faith, and realize the deepest connection you will ever have with another person is the person who is everything that you hope to be. The person that makes you want to be the best version of you. 

When we are together, there is no question of whether or not it’s right; it is the only thing that feels so right. It is the kiss that still sets your heart on fire after the hundredth, thousandth and millionth times your lips touch. It is the love that leaves endless fingerprints on your heart. It is the love that touches your soul, and wraps you so deeply within the life of another, that makes it feel right.

It is a shared consciousness between him and I. There is no calculating, manipulating, or deceiving. There is innocence, honesty and purpose in our consciousness. We don’t question each other, because we already know the answer. When we’re together, we have the answer. The answer is each other. 

How you know.

You won’t see it coming, but this person will knock the wind out of you and make you feel like you walked into a glass door you thought wasn’t there (maybe I’m the only person that’s ever happened to multiple times). Regardless, they’ll make you feel breathless. As if they bundled up all the air you thought you had in your lungs and took it away, but in a good way. I think that’s when you know you’ve met someone, but not just anyone.

I feel like I’ve been there, done that. There’s no saying when you know that you’re completely done with dating or maybe that you’ve barely even begun. This person, he feels different to me. It feels perfectly warm, comfortable, and compassionate. There may be no words at the time, but it is a welcome surprise. So if you aren’t wondering, I am: how did I meet my person?

At the time I was involved with another person, someone we both knew. I met you and it took me a whole year for me to realize he wasn’t going to change. You were patient for an entire year of gray, and then blue. You were patient, subtle, and comforting when I needed you to be. I tried to impress you by being good with the computer, with everything. I tried to impress you, but you already looked blown away. You were the reason I looked forward to Sundays, until Sundays became something else. I missed you, until I realized I shouldn’t.

And then one day, I was no longer tied down and there was a message waiting for me on my phone: “Are you working this Saturday?”

The rest becomes history as I let myself connect to you in a way I know we were meant for, and the space between our souls became less and less; now, I can’t bear to be away from you for longer than a few days. I found you in a way I wasn’t expecting. And I think that’s how I know.